09.11.2011 | by Dracovina | | Comments (22)
What do you believe?
First I must say that I never feel belong to something or some religion. I wear, feel and think what and how I like it, I would never claim from myself that I am in the "gothic scene". But yes, I wear almost exclusively black clothes, I like to go to "black" events and I hear "black" music. I can not explain exactly why I like this way. It's probably silly to split the society. Some feel good on a "trance" party, others on "metal" festivals. So what? It is therefore a "No Go" if I am going to both events when I want to? In not it the key to everything: Tolerance? Just by the way ...
Much like the scene I specify my faith as well. I may be on the paper "evangelical", but "my faith" is made up of different perspectives.
But simply the word "faith" caused a lot of questions, opinions and viewpoints that each determines for itself – or rather should be determined. I think the pressure in a particular faith is mostly as bad as the intolerance of some people which do not accept it. It is up to you in what or whom you believe as long as is not assumed that others should think and feel just like you. Faith is a wonderful thing because it helps so many people and gives power.
I often think about whether there are powers that be on earth, whether life is determined by destiny or is it all just coincidence. I often ask myself just why: Why there is me? Why there is the world? Why the universe? What would happen if there was just nothing, then nobody would not miss anything and there would be simply … nothing? So there must be powers? Or is it all just the result of billions of years of evolution of very small bacteria?
But what if there really is a god who created everything, including the earth and the mankind? Were not we all related to each other, if there were according to biblical narratives Adam and Eve, the tribal parents of humanity? Would they have a child, there would be only more children by incest of the next generation. Is this the real story?
I personally do not believe it. In my opinion everything must have started with the smallest bacteria. But how did they came off … ? And how arised this "I-feeling", the soul, the life … ? – I do not know.
I sink further into my thoughts, I come now to the afterlife, heaven and hell. I do not think there are places like this, where "good" and "bad" people will be sent after their deaths. Rather I can imagine that there is a new life after death … perhaps a rebirth? Perhaps each of us was once before another man, or even an animal? Or does the souls whir around aimlessly after death? Where "disappear" our "I", this "being-feeling," after we die? Do not we give a new creature perhaps life?
So by the topics "good" and "evil": would not a God prevent that there is so much harm, pain and suffering on earth? Or would not he punish those who commit such outrage? Or there will be nothing done against it, because the balance of the earth must be preserved? It is almost like food, too much of one kind is not good. If all people would be good, then there would be no "evil"?
Is not the classification always relative and is not it in the eye of the beholder? What one person sense as evil, may be normal for another. These days everything is affected by society, is not it? So you can not say exactly what is "good" or not.
Well. Enough of the labyrinth of thought.
To summarize: I am not sure what I should believe. Sometimes I think that there are powers, the determination, sometimes I think everything is just a good interaction with many processes and influences. In the end I can not constitute my faith, it is just this feeling that my thoughts are "right".
For years a pentagram with the tip pointing upwards adorns almost continuously my neck, also at night or in the shower. I believe in the meaning of the middle ages, it called, that this symbol should protect against evil forces.
I wear my bat pendant with a red stone since I was 17 years old. Also, I take it off only in exceptional cases, because it represents something like a talisman for me, which I wear almost always with me, just like my pentagram. Without him, I feel somehow "naked" …
Today I would not wear a cross, no matter how it is turned around (in whatever form, t-shirt printing, pendants etc.). It does not feel right to wear a holy symbol, which the belief or non-belief is associated. I can not reflect my thoughts an feelings in this cross.
The pentagram (pentacle) with the tip pointing upwards applied in the middle ages as a ban-, defense- and protection sign against evil characters, demons and ghosts. The inverted pentagram is associated with the occult and satanism, as a "sign of the goat of the Sabbath," here the spike are the horns, ears and beard of the goat.
The inverted cross (Saint Peter's cross) has its origins at apostle Peter, who should be crucified. He expressed his desire to hang upside down because he was not worthy, to die in the same way like Christ.
Today, this inverted cross is used as the inversion of the Christian faith. Similar to the inverted pentagram you can find it as a sign of Satanism.
I also have a bad feeling when it is the last day of the year after the calendar today (New Year) and I do not fire at least one rocket into the sky. Somehow I am afraid of the coming year, that there will be bad surprises, because the "evil spirits" are not banished by me.
If I am honest, I do not feel verys good when I am staying at a cemetery, whether night or day. The feeling that I disturb the last resting of the deceased plagued me. I have great respect for it and when I go through the gears and look at the graves, I think about the story, their destiny and become very depressed when I read on some grave stones, that this human just enojoyed life a few weeks.
But on the other hand, I should not worry, because there are only the dead bodies of humans and the real person is no longer there. There is no one who could make "trouble" because I have disturbed someone. But I still have this feeling that something is there. And I can not even explain it.
I guess I am not "normal" with some beliefs – especially in connection with "Gothic". But as I already said at the beginning: I have my own beliefs.
And so much on this subject and my contribution to the "Gothic Friday".
To my dear reader: Do you have a particular faith? Do you believe in reincarnation and life after death? And do you think there is such a thing as heaven and hell?
Auszug: Faust – Der Tragödie erster Teil (German)
MEPHISTOPHELES Gesteh' ich's nur! Daß ich hinausspaziere,
Verbietet mir ein kleines Hindernis.
Der Drudenfuß auf Eurer Schwelle.FAUST Das Pentagramma macht dir Pein?
Ei, sage mir, du Sohn der Hölle,
Wenn das dich bannt, wie kamst du denn herein?
Wie ward ein solcher Geist betrogen?Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832), ger. poet, author
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Dracovina
10. November 2011, 22:53 Uhr
Danke! :)